Wow... thank you all for continuing the conversation...
I just got back home and plan on going to bed... I think I have the flu but I definitely have something... my appetite is off...
It's no secret that manufacturers of certain types of foods and drinks are not above using chemicals that make us want more of their product.... Just look at the amount of sugar and sodium in most of the foods...
I want to learn to live without the roller coaster and the other stuff that goes with it. I like myself but it's been a long time since I could talk to myself in the mirror.... every time I see a camera I run and hide...
Don't get me wrong... I like me... I know that I am a nice person... I'm a Christian, bound for Heaven, I'm smart, I work hard for my community, I'm a good wife and I'm also a mother [that's probably a key to my issues]... I've left a man because he was abusive and never looked back... that takes courage... I've been homeless... and now I have a home and two vehicles... and I'm not broke... I am sure I can conquer this too... but not on my own... I need help...
I have always found that I am never in a boat alone... there is always someone else going through the same issues I have... or something really like it...
In this case there are thousands [at least] that have gone before me and they can teach me how to do this... So...
Do we want to do this?