You are right, I will now have closure. I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing just yet. Sometimes not knowing is much better. I just didn't think that this would be the outcome. He was just a baby. He was only 1 1/2. I think that is what is killing me the most. He didn't even have a chance in life.
I am just beating myself up because deep down I knew it was just a matter of time before something like this happened. He kept taking off out of the door every time someone opened it. I contemplated giving him to my mom over the summer because she is home all day and has a fenced yard and I guess I was too selfish. I didn't want to give him away and now I wish I would have because he would still be here and at least we would get to visit him when we wanted.
I guess this is how it usually is when something like this happens. You keep asking yourself "what if".
My oldest son is so upset. He wants us to take him and have an autopsy performed on him because he thinks someone might have hurt him. He doesn't show any signs of being attacked by something or hit by a car. I don't know if I want to know anymore details. Either way, it won't make the outcome any different. All I know is he is in a better place.
Thanks again for all of your support with this. I couldn't believe the amount of people that we received calls from. It is so nice to know that people care.
