perhaps you were able to view my first thread about giving thanks,i got some replies that were encouragement for me,and i thank those who replied,i am just amazed at people,all my life i felt like life was a battle,fight to have and protect what you have,almost as if everyone was a potential enemy.a few months ago i was baptised,going to church with my wife i realized,its awesome,no matter how crazy life gets,when sunday come round and ya walk into the house of the lord,i feel peace,i feel safe,and i feel loved,and during the week when i say my prayers i get those same feelings,i have met some really good people,and i realize,people are not my enemies,and given the chance they just want to help,expecting nothing in return,all these years i wasted thinking bad about people,i was wrong,i thank the lord for opening my eyes and showing me the good in all,even though my wife and i are going thru a very hard time,we know this is a test of our faith,we will not be angry because its hard but,it is bringing us closer to each other and showing us to appreciate what we have.god bless everyone,amen