Still deressed and still in pain

[craberta]

Sucks to be me, this won't end. I have weaned off all meds and hope that add meds wil help. I really want to go to college,but i may be too disorganised. and to old to get help from the college.

[morningbell (Premo)]

Originally Posted by craberta

Sucks to be me, this won't end. I have weaned off all meds and hope that add meds wil help. I really want to go to college,but i may be too disorganised. and to old to get help from the college.

NO

You are never too old, you can do it, make it a goal and go for it. Start small, baby goals grow up to be big goals.


Craberts, if you could be anything, I mean ANYTHING in the world, what would you be?

[morningbell (Premo)]

Originally Posted by craberta

Sucks to be me, this won't end. I have weaned off all meds and hope that add meds wil help. I really want to go to college,but i may be too disorganised. and to old to get help from the college.

BTW, Rx sucks. I took steroids for pain, I had never been so depressed in my LIFE! I layed in bed all day, cry for most of it. It was dumb. Exercise, swimming and walking are excellent for reducing pain, so is sex, lots of grade a quality humpin.

[craberta]

Yeah I have been running around alot, walking alot, and it does help, but I am so haunted by the past, and I stifeld the pain of y past for so long, it is hurting now, now that my kids are grown and I have had time to realise so many things at once, I feel like I have been slapped, and like I have to do whatever it takes to not let it kill me, my spirit, or let my hubby down.

[morningbell (Premo)]

Originally Posted by craberta

Yeah I have been running around alot, walking alot, and it does help, but I am so haunted by the past, and I stifeld the pain of y past for so long, it is hurting now, now that my kids are grown and I have had time to realise so many things at once, I feel like I have been slapped, and like I have to do whatever it takes to not let it kill me, my spirit, or let my hubby down.

We all have shiat that weighs us down at times and I swear to you, I swear that it is all temporary. Everything is temporary, nothing is forever, good and bad.

Not sure what your pain is..but about being old...
I went to college as an adult..age 40 something...cancer survivor ( ovarian) and with multipule pieces of metal implants...back, knees, etc.

Disabled Vietnam vet with nasty PTSD...will always have ghosts visit me..like now...just break down and cry and this fricken cloud passes over..and I am afraid to sleep.....afraid to finish theraphy because fo the pain I know is there..so I am here..at 2 am...

Great reason to be a rehabber and work with animals..they dont feel my tears or can they read the clock...!!

Anyway, went to college, got help and graduated with a 3.8GPH.
Fooled me! Had no idea I could do that!!!
Went on and and am working on second degree..why? no reason..just like to learn now and I know I can do it.

Hang in there....college will help you moe than you know and there are so many neat adventures out there..

And physical pain..I live with it 24/7.
I take Tramadol for pain..non addictive..knocks the pain from a 7-8 to a manageable 5-6. I recommend it!!!

I walk and one leg is nothing but bone rubbing on bare bone and the pain is *#$$*^!@#^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Waiting for winter to get a whole new knee!!!!

Hang in there and know that you are not alone here...
Someone can releate to you to some degree and understand.

hang in there...

[morningbell (Premo)]

Originally Posted by Inkpen

Not sure what your pain is..but about being old...
I went to college as an adult..age 40 something...cancer survivor ( ovarian) and with multipule pieces of metal implants...back, knees, etc.

Disabled Vietnam vet with nasty PTSD...will always have ghosts visit me..like now...just break down and cry and this fricken cloud passes over..and I am afraid to sleep.....afraid to finish theraphy because fo the pain I know is there..so I am here..at 2 am...

Great reason to be a rehabber and work with animals..they dont feel my tears or can they read the clock...!!

Anyway, went to college, got help and graduated with a 3.8GPH.
Fooled me! Had no idea I could do that!!!
Went on and and am working on second degree..why? no reason..just like to learn now and I know I can do it.

Hang in there....college will help you moe than you know and there are so many neat adventures out there..

And physical pain..I live with it 24/7.
I take Tramadol for pain..non addictive..knocks the pain from a 7-8 to a manageable 5-6. I recommend it!!!

I walk and one leg is nothing but bone rubbing on bare bone and the pain is *#$$*^!@#^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Waiting for winter to get a whole new knee!!!!

Hang in there and know that you are not alone here...
Someone can releate to you to some degree and understand.

hang in there...

You are amazing!

[craberta]

God, I hope so, cause I need to move on, I need to forget, and get on with my life. I do beleive in ghosts cause my parents and their stupidity and ignorance haunt me to this very minute. The damage parents cause to kids is forever. I am paying for sins that were comited by people I never met. And I concentrated so hard on stopping the buck with me, my kids have no idea what it is like to be abused. I completely ignolred myself. So, I drink alone, cry alone, suffer alone.

Originally Posted by morningbell

You are amazing!

Thank you...but not really.....just have a lot of friend who would not let me quit...and at times the dark got so bad, I wanted to....but friends stuck by me.

Now life is better and I only get one shot at this ride...and I got a ticket and am not getting off until the end!!...WWEeeeeeeeeeee

Originally Posted by craberta

God, I hope so, cause I need to move on, I need to forget, and get on with my life. I do beleive in ghosts cause my parents and their stupidity and ignorance haunt me to this very minute. The damage parents cause to kids is forever. I am paying for sins that were comited by people I never met. And I concentrated so hard on stopping the buck with me, my kids have no idea what it is like to be abused. I completely ignolred myself. So, I drink alone, cry alone, suffer alone.

You are never alone...and you can make peace with past and move on.
You will never find any answers in the botom of a bottle!
find your friends, find hope and you will find the path to freedom!!
I have doen it..took a lot of work...but am finally at peace with a woman who used me as a whipping post/punching bag. Abuse from a mentally ill parent is such a horrible thing to figure out and escape from.
But she can not longer hurt me, no one can.

Like Eleanor Rooseavelt said..."No one can make you feel inferior without your permission.!!"

No one can hurt you without your permission ...so dont give them the power over you to control your life.