After 4 years of being free from all pyschotropic meds I have decided to start back up on them. Feeling numb and melancholy was better than feeling happiness and sadness. I'll be taking the first step next Tuesday by meeting with my doctor. Numb to the world again here I come. Once I get back on the train there's no getting off and I'm going to suggest an SSRNI this time around vice another SSRI. Being a Zombie really wasn't so bad....