Tilted
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I did something that I thought I would never again do, and something I'm not particularly proud of. I did it twice and, though I hope I never do it again, I can't be sure that I won't. And yes, I'm just stalling now because this is not easy to admit.
I bought GM stock.
There. I've said it. On two separate occasions within the last month, I have purchased GM stock. I had originally intended it as a long term investment - I thought the valuation had reached a point where it was just too good to pass up. However, when that (possibly good) long term investment turned into a (known-to-be good) short term trade - i.e., when selling it immediately meant a significant and quick profit - I sold it. I then repeated the process a week or so later.
So, I am happy to say that as I write here today I am clean again - no longer the owner of stolen property, no longer the peddler of contraband. Still, I am ashamed of what I did. I fear that know-ers of right and wrong, decry-ers of governmental subjugation of rule of law, villify-ers of theft, will not easily forgive me. For that matter, I fear that I may never forgive myself and that decades from now, lying on my death spot, the few extra bucks in my bank account will provide little solace in light of the taint that my actions will have left on my integrity. Perhaps, by the grace of all that is holy in the Universe, my fears will prove unwarranted.
I go now to reflect longer - and deeper - on what I've done. And, to pray that my purchase of GM stock will not in the end represent just the first step in my descension into the ethical abyss - that it will not be a gateway drug of sorts, one which emboldened me to commit the ultimate act of depravity: actually buying a new GM or Chrysler vehicle.
I can't say I feel better now for having gotten this off my chest. After all, I still have my family and friends to fess up to. But, maybe this will represent the first step in a long journey that eventually leads to self-forgiveness.
Tilted: Buyer of post-bankruptcy GM stock, profiter from government tyranny. If ever I can face the world knowing I'll forever carry that scarlet letter on my back, I may one day rejoin you fine folks in meaningful conversation.
I bought GM stock.
There. I've said it. On two separate occasions within the last month, I have purchased GM stock. I had originally intended it as a long term investment - I thought the valuation had reached a point where it was just too good to pass up. However, when that (possibly good) long term investment turned into a (known-to-be good) short term trade - i.e., when selling it immediately meant a significant and quick profit - I sold it. I then repeated the process a week or so later.
So, I am happy to say that as I write here today I am clean again - no longer the owner of stolen property, no longer the peddler of contraband. Still, I am ashamed of what I did. I fear that know-ers of right and wrong, decry-ers of governmental subjugation of rule of law, villify-ers of theft, will not easily forgive me. For that matter, I fear that I may never forgive myself and that decades from now, lying on my death spot, the few extra bucks in my bank account will provide little solace in light of the taint that my actions will have left on my integrity. Perhaps, by the grace of all that is holy in the Universe, my fears will prove unwarranted.
I go now to reflect longer - and deeper - on what I've done. And, to pray that my purchase of GM stock will not in the end represent just the first step in my descension into the ethical abyss - that it will not be a gateway drug of sorts, one which emboldened me to commit the ultimate act of depravity: actually buying a new GM or Chrysler vehicle.
I can't say I feel better now for having gotten this off my chest. After all, I still have my family and friends to fess up to. But, maybe this will represent the first step in a long journey that eventually leads to self-forgiveness.
Tilted: Buyer of post-bankruptcy GM stock, profiter from government tyranny. If ever I can face the world knowing I'll forever carry that scarlet letter on my back, I may one day rejoin you fine folks in meaningful conversation.