When my children did things that are absolutely stupidly idiotic..... I hated it.... I yelled at them.... I put them in time out.... I punished them.... even used a spanking to punish them.... but I still love them.Yooper:
I can only skim through what you have taken much time to think about - I broke the arm on my reading glasses last week and finished them off about an hour ago - further I want to take the time to thoroughly read and absorb what is obviously a thoughtful response. From the little I can pick up, it deserves my undivided attention - better at 4am when it's quiet here.
Your final paragraph though hit home so hard that it brought me to tears - in my heart of hearts I know that God is everything you described but I am so unworthy, yet I know that He loves me, but I don't understand why - how can that be? How can He forgive my shortcomings and outright sins when I cannot forgive myself?
Thank you for taking so much time - my apologies for short changing you - Friday night at the movies with my son starts at 7. Have a lovely evening!
Humans are stupid.... God made us so He already knows how stupid we all are. He gives us a little credit for just being stupid humans.
God created the Universe.... He created time... when He set the earth to rotate around while rotating around the sun... making the sun come up and the sun go down.... a day. Since He created time.... He controls time.... He knows if you have put off talking to Him. He also knows why.
I really think God likes the idea that you seem to be so shy towards Him. My daughter cried when I took her to see Santa Clause. I didn't understand at all.... but then she told me she was afraid he wouldn't like her. When we whispered that problem in Santa's ear.... He flung upon his arms... chuckled... and won over my daughters fearful heart. I think God will do the same for you.
Humans are stupid... but God created us... so He understands that flaw. I think He must find it endearing.... or He would have corrected it a long time ago.