See, for me it wasn't awful. Yeah, it would have been great if he'd have been able to finish the amazing feat. It would have made for an all-time great sports story,
It would have been THE greatest sports story of our recorded time. Bar none. and an incredibly inspiring one. But I think it was pretty darn inspiring anyway, and the experience of getting to watch it and root for him and hope for him was still very enjoyable, quite invigorating, what I like to call life-affirming.
When it comes to things like sports - things that by their nature are more representational life experiences than essential life experiences, where their value is in their substitution for normal life challenges - it is the fight that matters. It is having the chance that matters, struggling to succeed that matters, the experience that matters. That's the whole point. We create the rewards and accolades so that the struggle seems important, so that it feels real. But the accompaniments of success are there to facilitate the experience, to enrich it; the experience isn't there to facilitate the accompaniments or the success. It's an aspect of life where the adage, in its various forms, holds true - it's the journey, not the destination.
Not in this case. Tom already made the journey, the fights, the struggles, the heart breaks, the soaring success, over decades. To make the cut at 60 is beyond imagination. To still be in contention Saturday night, outrageous. To be LEADING to the last freaking hole Sunday evening??? Simply unthinkable. That's not even acceptable as pure 100% Rocky fantasy. To then have to go play four more holes, done, spent, finished, the cruelest thing I've ever seen in sport that didn't involve actual physical harm.
To be clear, in other aspects of life that's not the case - or not as much the case. It's the accomplishment itself, and what goes with it, that matters. But in this case especially, with Mr. Watson, the fight was the thing. And we got to vicariously experience that fight with him. Whether he has 5 Open titles to his name or 6, he has to go down as the greatest Open golfer and champion in the modern era. And I suspect he has enough cash that the prize money wouldn't have changed his life much. And he's rightfully beloved and his character admired regardless. Winning would have been great for him, I'm sure he wanted it very badly. But after the fact it can only matter so much. It was in the wanting - in those moments when he was playing and trying to win - that the greatest value could be found. Win or lose, that couldn't be taken away. He got to live that again, one more time - all the way until the last stroke on a Sunday evening at the Open. He got to be the great Tom Watson again, with his game firing on all cylinders and hoards of golfing fans - perhaps more than ever - rooting him on. He got a chance to once again be the best and he got the thrill that comes with the realization of that chance - the thrill of butterflies challenging his mind's control over his body and calling into question his ability to precisely execute simple motions he'd been doing all his life. I suspect he didn't think he would get to feel those things again (or at least wasn't sure he would), but he did. That's the prize, that's what he earned with his amazing play that week. And he got to inspire countless people on to who knows what - to reaching for things they might not have thought possible.
Not one loss, ever, was the result of physical failure. it is one thing to blow it, to pull the putt, to choke, whatever. It is quite another to reach the point where it is right there and you simply have given EVERYTHING to have and there is NOTHING left. Beyond heartbreak. This was damn near watching a man who could no longer struggle silently and with nothing left but dignity, slide beneath the waves.
I can be happy for him for that even though he didn't win. He still got that. And we got what sports fans get, the thrill of rooting for him and the experience of hope that what we desire will come to pass.
Not me. This was so FAR beyond ANYTHING I can even think of, making the cut, contending, having it WON, I mean, this is Micheal Jordan coming back at 60 and having a free throw to win a title. This is Cal Ripken at 60 needing only to field a slow roller and throw to first to win the World Series. This is Gretzky at 60 with an empty net and whiffing on it to lose the Cup. This is Secretariat, at, what, 12 years, with 12 lengths breaking down right before the line. Really, what difference does it make in my life that Tom Watson did or didn't win the 2009 Open? Or that the Redskins did or didn't win the 2014 Super Bowl?
The Redskins had every tool necessary, youth, strength, ability and simply lacked the talent, skill and coaching. They COULD have. There is NO way, ever, Tom Watson contends on the weekend. NONE. Making the cut is ridiculous. As sports fans what we get is the experience, the hope. If we think there's more than that to be had, we've let ourselves go too far into (or rather, stay too long in) the illusion. The illusion that a particular team or competitor winning matters to our lives is only there to facilitate the experience, and that illusion need only be temporary to fulfill that purpose. Once a game is over, or a championship is won, it's time to move on to the next such illusion.
In any other context I'd agree but Watson in '09 is in a chapter to itself in a book with nothing else in it in a library with ONE book.
So, anyway, far from being an awful thing, that Tom Watson performance was terrific for me. I thank him for it. In that moment immediately following his failure to get it done, it was heartbreaking. That was the way that particular sports fan experience got metabolized, that's the way that some of them are. But metabolized it was; a source of life-affirming energy it became. And thus, at this point and as is the case with many things in life, it is the memory of the experience that is left and that matters - and I mean the experience of hoping and rooting for him, not the experience of knowing the result.
(Plus, by him not winning we got the bonus of Stewart Cink - to whom such a victory probably mattered more in real terms - winning.)