eclark said:
I'm okay, I'm at the calm before the storm, I know my friend is dead but the reality won't set in until the funeral and my heart will break some more.
Excellent. Use that grief as a catalyst to help all the young people around you that you see going down a similar path.
Remind them that the following are unacceptable behavior: carrying a concealed weapon, firing at a police officer, drunk driving, trespassing, drug use, drug dealing.
Remind them that there IS a price to pay and that your friend paid that price for breaking the law and living in an unacceptable manner.
Help to direct them away from that type of life.
In this way, your friend would not have died in vain, but as an example to others.