Near-death Experiences
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i had a near death experience when i was like 9 years old, i was rollerblading with my friend and i was going down a little hill and i tried to put the break on but i pushed back on the wrong skate (the one without the break) and i fell back then i remember looking down at myself laying down in the parking lot of the apartments i lived in , i was looking into a well of water and instead of a reflection it was me laying down, then i looked over and there was an old man next to me he spoke no words i dont know what it was about then he just looked at me then closed his eyes then i woke up in my neighbors arms and he was carrying me up to my apartment. it was weird
Larry Gude
Strung Out
I was about 13 or so...
...and nobody was home, so, I got to do one of my favorite things; CRANK the tunes up. I was listening to Sabbath, turned all the lights out and turned a black light on. We had this odd sofa that had a yellow flower print on it and it just radiated light even in near pitch black. The black light made it always look wierd.
Anyway, I'm just sitting there and started zoning out, totally straight. I got this idea in my head to just see if I could will myself to death.
I just sat there for I have no idea how long just totally, completely relaxed, letting go. It was a sense of absolute freedom and it grew more and more, not intense, but I guess more that I was totally tuned in to how at peace I was.
My eyes were closed and my mind was absolutely blank, other than being intensely aware of how at peace I was, a clear feeling of descending, gently, into a cave of darkness, zero light. I have no idea how much time passed, minutes probably and there it was, I started coming upon a very bright, white light.
It stopped me cold and back I went, gently but deliberately, awake in no time.
No God. No Jesus with an outstretched hand. No clouds, harps, angels or otherwise, just a white light. No temperature either, neither hot nor cold, just peace.
It seems to me, then and now, it's what happens when old people, otherwise physically capable of life, just let go.
For all I truly know, it was just that ####ing ugly ass yellow couch. In any event, I can't imagine anything more horrible than dying when you're not ready; serious injury, drowning, scratching, clawing every inch as life slips away, whatever, and I can't imagine anything more peaceful than dying when you're ready to go.
...and nobody was home, so, I got to do one of my favorite things; CRANK the tunes up. I was listening to Sabbath, turned all the lights out and turned a black light on. We had this odd sofa that had a yellow flower print on it and it just radiated light even in near pitch black. The black light made it always look wierd.
Anyway, I'm just sitting there and started zoning out, totally straight. I got this idea in my head to just see if I could will myself to death.
I just sat there for I have no idea how long just totally, completely relaxed, letting go. It was a sense of absolute freedom and it grew more and more, not intense, but I guess more that I was totally tuned in to how at peace I was.
My eyes were closed and my mind was absolutely blank, other than being intensely aware of how at peace I was, a clear feeling of descending, gently, into a cave of darkness, zero light. I have no idea how much time passed, minutes probably and there it was, I started coming upon a very bright, white light.
It stopped me cold and back I went, gently but deliberately, awake in no time.
No God. No Jesus with an outstretched hand. No clouds, harps, angels or otherwise, just a white light. No temperature either, neither hot nor cold, just peace.
It seems to me, then and now, it's what happens when old people, otherwise physically capable of life, just let go.
For all I truly know, it was just that ####ing ugly ass yellow couch. In any event, I can't imagine anything more horrible than dying when you're not ready; serious injury, drowning, scratching, clawing every inch as life slips away, whatever, and I can't imagine anything more peaceful than dying when you're ready to go.
Larry Gude said:
Amen! It's how I hope I go but life is funny. There are no guarantees you'll ever get what you want. You just hope for the best and pray you're one of the lucky ones. 
I was very, very ill when I was 17. I spent close to two months in Bethesda Naval Center Hospital. At one point they didn't think I was going to pull out of it and told my mother that. It crossed my mind several times how easy it would be to stop struggling and just let go, but something inside of me just wouldn't let me do that. I never had the "go towards the light" thing happen, but I was pretty close at times.
I also spent my 18th birthday, which was election day, getting a spinal tap and not being able to eat the birthday cake they brought me nor being able to vote.
