In Severe Emotional Pain...

[craberta]

Going to go write something on paper, shot condensed writing of all the things I went through that a child never should have to. Just like she asked. Man, it is going to take a while. I don't feel pain of the physicall kind anymore. Now I can write. Thank you all for the help. See you guys on here tommorow. When I drunk post, I talk about tattoos, boob jobs and weird things that happened when I was in the service.

 

[Mousebaby]

Going to go write something on paper, shot condensed writing of all the things I went through that a child never should have to. Just like she asked. Man, it is going to take a while. I don't feel pain of the physicall kind anymore. Now I can write. Thank you all for the help. See you guys on here tommorow. When I drunk post, I talk about tattoos, boob jobs and weird things that happened when I was in the service.

 

[SweetThang]

Again. There is no medication for this. I am one of those people who literally feel pain when sad or depressed. It feels like a dagger in the heart. I wish I could be like most other people, and feel nothing at all, but alas I am not. My therapist wanted me to write down all the awful things I went through, things children should never go through, and all it did was open a can of worms. Now I am feeling pain. Crap! No wonder people avoid it and become “alchys”. This is like open-heart surgery! Damn her and her help. Imagine a small knife in your throat and a bigger one in your upper chest! Aww it hurts! And can any more tears squirt out of my F-ing eyes? S-O-B! Its' like swallowing boiling water!

crabby-I'll show you my list if you show me yours!
Honest, you are not alone with your sadness and pain, the world is full of folks who share your pain.

 

[toppick08]

.......Let it go, best you can, work with your therapist, and LIVE FOR TODAY.......

 

[ShyGirl]

I think there is a reason why this is happening for you right now.

You ARE strong enough to face whatever happened and to do something to start resolving it within yourself.

Forgive yourself for not being able to deal with it before. You can't change what happened, but you can make a deliberate decision not to be tortured by it anymore.

Try an "automatic writing" exercise just to get everything down on paper. Your inner child has surfaced and your emotions are strong. From your adult perspective, you might be able to see that the guilt/blame that you have been carrying around, do not appropriately belong to you and should not rest on your soul. By acknowledging that, it should help you to release the ties that bind you in a healthy, liberating, empowering way.

You are in my prayers.

 

[CMC122]

Wow, I think you really need to call your therapist. Have you actually considered going to see a Doctor for meds (not pain meds but meds for the PTSD, depression and anxiety you are suffering)that can help you thru this a little better? Mental health is such an important aspect to your life and getting it when you need it is even more important! There is so much effective help out there don't limit yourself to one avenue!

 

[SamSpade]

Again. There is no medication for this. I am one of those people who litterally feels pain when sad or depressed. It feels like a daggger in the heart. I wish I could be like most other people, and feel nothing at all, But alas I am not. My therapist wanted me to write down all the awful things I went through, things children should never go through, and all it did was open a can of worms. Now I am feeling Pain. Crap! No wonder people avoid it and become alchys. This is like open heart surgery! Damn her and her help. Imagine a small knife in your throat and a bigger one in your upper chest! Aww it hurts! And can any more tears squirt out of my F-ing eyes? S-O-B! Its' like swallowing boiling water!

Don't know how to help except to say I am very familiar with this feeling. Unlike an upset stomach or a headache, it just won't go away. This kind of depression hits me for days probably as often as once a year, but it lasted a month when I lost my job, and almost as long once when I broke up with someone. All I can say is, even if you're not receiving medication for it, it does eventually subside.

The first couple of times I had it, I sought out medication which made it WORSE. The most recent episode, I just sat down and tried to calm myself for a few hours at a time - found a quiet place and just let it all go. After a few days, I could manage.

I can easily see why people turn to alcohol though. It does make it go away, sort of. Alcohol is kind of like dropping a bowling ball on your foot. It's a distraction, but the pain remains.

On the other hand - my sister is bipolar, and she was always being treated for the depression half of her disorder (because commonly among bipolars, the "manic" side isn't seen easily as a 'problem', but the depression is). She frequently turned to alcohol until some smart doctor realized she wasn't craving alcohol, she was self-medicating.

If this persists, seek medical help. My sister leads a normal, happy life now, as long as she takes her medication.

 

[soulonfirex05]

If you are experiencing real physical pain with depression, you may want to talk to your primary care doctor about cymbalta...it's to help treat pain associated with depression. I have lots of patients on cymbalta and they seem to like it. hope this helps ! feel better ! :hugs:

 

[beerlover]

Don't be afraid to try the meds. I know LOTS of people who have gone on anti-depressants of one kind or another and it CHANGED THEIR LIVES for the better. If one doesn't work for you, another one may. They don't make you high or euphoric or anything like that. And keep up the therapy... Best of luck to you....

 

[vegmom]

If you are experiencing real physical pain with depression, you may want to talk to your primary care doctor about cymbalta...it's to help treat pain associated with depression. I have lots of patients on cymbalta and they seem to like it. hope this helps ! feel better ! :hugs:

Cymbalta really helped me (depression + pain). There are so many meds out there something is bound to help you. Meds can't erase your memories, but they can help correct any chemical imbalances (and traumatic events can alter how your brain chemistry works) that are making it extra difficult to cope.