If I may ...
It is disgusting because you, and the white populace, have been conditioned to think so. However, if that is the case, why is it that cracker, honky, whitey, and others, do not have the same offensiveness? After all that, "n", word is derivative of, "negro", for the color black from the Spanish and Portuguese. The other words for whites are true pejoratives. I also don't use it in a blanket way, since, in my view, the definition has changed. It still means black, but is intended for those like kind, "uneducated ghetto rednecks, white trash, and crackers", of the black race. And does not include the outliers, (educated, well spoken, respected, achievers, accomplished, talented, professionals, live and let live) of the black people. Excepting those that continue to push the narrative, and create scheming programs, that somehow it is ok to discriminate against whites, and others, based on skin color or because of some event that happened well beyond anyone's control living today.
Maybe mulatto is on the list of words to be banned from use in the future? Maybe all forms of cussing will be banned else "feelings" be hurt? Or maybe, our government/s will stop the class and race warfare and division, and treat everyone equal, enforce all laws equally, as it is supposed to be? Because that is where most of the contemptuous hate comes from and is fomented by nowadays anyways.
How's this. I'll stop using that word when black people stop using that word. Will that work for ya? You know, equal protection and all that Constitutional type jazz?